I am completely changing course with this blog. I think I have had a sudden onset of ADHD and bipolar disorder over the last two weeks. I recently had an the opportunity to go away for the weekend with some friends and I think the upsurge of serotonin has created some significant brain changes. Seriously! I don't know if I needed a vacation more than my friends or if I am just in a different place in regards to my marriage than them, but they were calling home several times a day to check on everyone and I could have cared less. Don't get me wrong, I love my children, but there was no use fretting over whether they had baths or went to bed on time. My husband doesn't do things my way so why get worked up about it. I have needed to let go for a long time. Although fulfilling a childhood dream when your 30 isn't exactly the same as when you were 13, if was certainly the next best thing. I was able to fully walk away from all the stress in my life and fully immerse myself in pure fun.
In looking at Erik Erikson's stages of psychosocial development, I think I am at a point where I am renegotiating my relationship with others at this point in the game. I have been overly consumed with parenthood and it's responsibilities, that I have profoundly neglected myself. Starting school was certainly a catapult into this direction. I have been fighting it for months now. As Hutchinson points out in The Changing Life Course, " The young adult who is exploring and expanding identity experiences tension between independence and self-sufficiency on one hand and a need for connection with others and reliance on a greater whole on the other".
Since starting school, I think I view dysfunction in my life with a magnifying glass. How in the world do I have any business helping others when my life seems so screwed up? I am slowly beginning to realize that we all have issues. I am still not wholly satisfied with that prospect but am learning to deal. I have found that personal limitations are more evident to me and feel challenged to improve myself.
I suppose I have been rambling, but I don't think that my brain can move in any other direction at this point. The flood gates have opened and I am not sure if I am wearing my life jacket!!!!!!!
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Issues in one's life don't have too much to do with helping others - it's the ability to manage and access resources to help you manage those issues that makes a difference.
A friend of mine and I were just having this discussion today-trying to help others when we ourselves need the help. She suggested that people in the helping field, such as SW and therapy, sometimes entire these fields to seek/find help themselves by helping others.
(Does that make sense? It did to me.)
In my office we all vent to each other. If you walk around the floor, you will see somebody in a persons office venting. It is easy to help others and still have issues in your life. Everyone has issues in their lives, if we did not we would not have a job. Some days it is hard to help others, because you hit a point of what else can I do. But the next day will be better. If not take a mental health day. Going to the beach with girlfriend’s sounds like fun, and much needed!
Overall, finding a person to vent to is the key!!
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